Frames in Flux

When everyone left, 2022

It's been a few days since I launched my newly designed photography website. Several reasons led me to undertake this revamp, but the decisive moment came when I was asked to share my most recent resume for a job opportunity.

At that time, I wasn't actively seeking full-time employment, as my focus was about to shift towards a personal photography project. However, life has a way of surprising us. While crafting my resume, a thought occurred to me – why not present my new website to showcase my aesthetic sensibilities? Within just two days, I managed to actualize what had been lingering in my mind for a month. The right amount of pressure and a great trigger propelled me to accomplish the task swiftly, keeping me on the fast track without veering into chaos. Ironically, it turned out they didn't even review my website, but I consider the effort worthwhile.

As I write this, I find myself in a state of anticipation, waiting to hear back from the team. In the last few days, I've been on a rollercoaster of emotions, ranging from excitement to trepidation, with a looming sense of anxiety about when and how it will all end. The uncertainty, with no clear answers until the culmination of my journey, feels somewhat unfair, as if I'm desiring something I hadn't initially wanted – a predicament I might have avoided if I hadn't been aware of the opportunity.

In certain moments throughout the day, particularly after crossing off tasks on my to-do list or achieving milestones in my journey (just like the website redesign), I find myself pondering, "So what now?" When I shared my website address with my dad, he suggested, "Don't you also need to promote your website so people can come and see your photos?" Even my dad, in his 60s in South Korea, knows this these days. So, what's the next step?

I suppose I'll discover that in due time.